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Tired Wrinkled Vegas Show

on with the horns
and off with the show
make up melting in the rain
times up, game over
ugly cracked painted façade
unmasked, revealed, now a joke
punchlines so fun
hit me in the gut
memories lie wasted



Elusive Joy

Some people have no clue how
To get high
Without drugs or alcohol.
Its called joy.
And you can’t buy it in any store.
You can’t steal it out of spite.
You have to earn it.
Through following your heart.
If you have one that is.
If you haven’t destroyed it
With cruel selfish acts
And all your left with
Is a black empty shell.
cause its hip,
So hip and cool,
To be an alcoholic,
To get inebriated.
So go be fly,
With your sad pathetic self.
I’ll be over here
Enjoying myself.
Don’t try to bring me down
With your jealous words,
I see who you are!!


All the things I’m afraid of writing in my diary
All the things I’ve been taught are wrong
All the things written in police reports
Cold hard facts of hatred
But my dreams contain these horrors
And I’m forbidden to write them
Forbidden to show them
Forbidden to say them
But they happen
Yet it’s not appropriate for the community
Reality is not good for the community
Only fairy tales
Can’t even say the words
The words women fear most
But we’re called them
They happen to us
But it’s inappropriate for the community
To express your feelings on them


Shiny Illusions Of Hope

Do you want me to kill myself?
My head in the toilet,
Another desolate broken songbird.
All this time
That’s what you’ve been wanting.
So tragic and romantic!
You can be sad,
Finally have a reason to love me!
Say you miss me,
But I’ve run far away,
Chasing freedom,
Her white gown eluding my grasp
Fades into the mist.
You want to destroy me!!
Come back, come back!
We’re not done with you!
Your trying to live,
We want you dead.
Here’s some pills.
You feel that pain?
Kill it with them.
You can do nothing,
Nothing ever good.
Tempt me with promises,
Promises of care.
Bent and twisted lies,
Shiny illusions of hope.
Watch my tender heart
Turn cold.
Drown myself in darkness.
Can I never escape?


Magnificent Dawn

Love is a cheap word

when it comes to you.

I ate an image,

Not even food.

I found God in you,

I’ve been revived.

Insecurity, second guessing,

Vanish with your convictions.

My thoughts in your mouth,

Astonish me.

Never knew I would find you,

The sun rises again,

After a gloomy night.

You are my dawn,



Women Trained Like Slaves

We’ve been trained like slaves
to judge, rip apart.
I’m reading,
He said, did you enjoy it?
I said, I’m still searching.
WOW, you like those
bikini clad girls.
Sorry… no I’m not.
games, games,
should I repeat?
He said, you think your the only one?
I said, you want me to compete…
with her, with them?
Oh, dont bother me anymore,
I’m about to explode.
I need to find myself,
your tearing me apart.


A Whore’s Freedom

red lipstick above her mustache
working for the man
a sardonic smile
I look above and around him
holding on to all the moments of brightness
morning air, church flowers, ducks in the lake
you cant take credit for my achievments
my strength is my own
a whore’s freedom


The Trend Mistress

oh what are you into
me too
im a leader
i disapear
and reapear for the fame
i get praise for manipulation
everything i do is liked
i dress obviously
so you cant attack me
i dont try hard
but i bleach my hair and
wear blue contacts
so im the best and smartest
i already have mastered
everything you are
im the trend mistress
i have a godzilla jaw
ill eat your genuineness
im the riot girl
all about the partying
i’m so empowered


Starving Man Boy

why should I care anymore
not going to be part of your harem
don’t need you for validation
hypocrite thats what you are
go home to your robot slave women
she’s right and proper for a wife
but go beg little moist girls for water
make your declarations of right
your still a sad and lonely
starving little boy inside
dont come to me
i dont feed self rightous begars
the banquet you’ve declared as sin
dont come asking for scraps
if you ask me
your a coward
too afraid of real love
afraid of surrender
you want worshipers
yet all you attract
is users

I know who you are now,  so I’ll let you go…


Love Game Competition

my life all day and night is
a love game competition
worship me
throw my body around
win affection
look at me look at me
I’m the easy empty vessel
fill me up with you
I’m mind tricks and your a
little drooling dog
lick my heels
bite nice girls
I scream and go yeeeaaaah
I’ll be what you want
I fill the role
TV broad dance drink scream
shake my hips
all will worship me
otherwise my hate will eat you
don’t think
just look
on your knees
be my validation




Wild Goddess

I am Goddess
milk white skin
how dare you give me
this feeling
in my pit
of nothing
black dark
sick of
sparkle silver illusions
love her
empty woman
I will not be bound
put your
chains over her
I’m free
wild goddess
I live with Pegasus
fly by moonlight
kiss you
while you sleep
slumber in ignorance
adore your
plastic dolls
real love
eludes you
while I fly free




I’m one of the
broken fragile people with only glue holding together their beaten souls
fragile yet strong
strong on my own
no one else ever there for me
I’m strong because I’ve had no one
no love, no shelter
a broken family
and you think I’m spoiled
I’m too clever
too pretty
that I must have had it all
but I’ve never had a thing
a kind word, praise, comfort
from anyone
I’m on my own
my strength is my own
torn and broken
as my pride is
how dare you rip apart my faith
justification in loving one and punishing another
you don’t know me
the words the judgements
I hear
I will not let hurt me anymore
a kind word is the world to those who’ve never had any
but you’ll never understand me
I love all, you included
I never want to inflict the suffering I’ve lived through on another

let the cycle end here

with me


Loveless Man

A stranger in your own house
returning from one job
to the next
another goal
career is set
now family is accomplished
but I’ve seen in your eyes
I know what you deny
you don’t fool me
repressing yourself
to fit in
it’s all a show
but your eyes reveal your soul
their my home
as my eyes are your true home
return to that sanctuary
if only fleetingly
and forget the lies we tell the world




Pluto leave me alone
bringing me back to my past
I’ve burst into flames
from the pain
now I’m nothing but ashes
I don’t know
how to rise from them
stuck in my adolescence
immobilized by foolish desires
can’t leave them behind
my heart is cracked
no ones fault but mine
you give me no direction
what can I do, to be new?


Without Your Love

my love is forever
yours is ever-burning
you have it all
I receive it
my oxygen
but you cut it off
just to see me choke
forever receptive
I need this
just like
the moon
reflects the sun
without it’s light
it’s just another empty black hole



Hope is a little bird that lives in a dark little cave in your heart,

holding it together with its sad little song.

Until one day for no reason at all it flies away.

Leaving your heart to cave in, crack, crumble

and turn into a dust from which the phoenix will never rise.


Your Fallen Angel

dying in front of you
twirling my hair
little girl lost
your cool indifference
kills me
hopelessly falling
fuck obscurity
this is intolerable
my heart’s your plaything
a mindless amusement
go ahead
laugh at my foolishness
a stupid silly girl
its fun to ignore
to pretend
just a pretty doll
no mind
no feelings
I die
you laugh
cruel sadistic bastard
yet I’m still falling
making up dazzling illusions
while you wait for the crash
knowing and smirking slyly


Women in Boxes

Aries sun, cancer moon.
insecurity, sensitivity explode
hate my fucking self
not allowed to be a person
a woman
no mind
no rights
get in place now, get in your box.
someone kill me
I don’t want to be a slave
a broodmare
fuck your society
your rules
where creators of life have no voice, no choice, no mind.


Poisonous Passion

Intoxicated by your nearness
I lose my myself
Your eyes meet mine
I cant hold back
you see everything
falling into unknown heights
ready to believe any illusion
So I run from you
this passion scares me
and now I find your confused
Why? This love can’t grow
and you know why
Jealousies tear us apart
desire repressed, kills our hearts
where do we go from here?
I’m so lost
Don’t hate me
Not wanting to drown
I cling to the beach
but the sand is wet from tears
I’m losing my grip
falling into infinite you
tell me, is it so odd to want to keep yourself in one piece?



The Mirror of You and I

remember now
don’t be a fool
this is were i have to stay
don’t smile
don’t laugh
don’t be polite
your not part of it.
don’t be a fool
don’t kid yourself.
im here
out here
dying where i belong.
where i was born.
You cant understand ?
oh! You think You do!
You think its me?
cause ive never even tried?
i have.
but They know.
sorry but i cant be fake,
and actually, well, You see im sorry for You.
it alright though! like You said, “Don’t Worry!”
i understand.
ive suffered.
You haven’t.
here i am on the outside,
looking through the glass,
smiling at Your glee,
a mirror, where You see You and i see me.
both alone,
i thought We could be One, BUT
I’ve learned better.
I’m not invited in your clique.
but thats ok,
I’ll do what I have too.
I will will will recall Myself.
and anyways, what do I ever earn?
I only come full circle.
I cant escape me, my past .
and I see now that,
My future can’t last.
you will see, I will be Me.